optimistic or pessimistic?

Alhamdulillah...finally I'm here back, as a blogger, as a person who've got a lot of the untold story to be tell.. Actually, still, I don't have courageousness to write everything about my personal life after everything 'happens' in 2011. But, it's ok as long as I'm telling the GAY parts (means CERIA tau! bukan citer x senonoh seperti "saya gay, saya ok"..check dictionary tuh!..hoh0!) in my life..plus entertainment news!! itu wajib!! taklah bosan citer kisah aku jer...sangat! :)

As starter, Happy New Year 2012 to all my friends! because of y'all guys, ada la semangat nak taip blog I yg tak seberapa nilainye...(baru check nuffnang I..x sampai rm10..sedeyh..). But it's ok as long as you enjoy my blog (thanks to kim kardashian yg tolong naik rating blog I..huhu..) and pleaseee! give me a feedback if you have any suggestion or idea to improve my blog...I'm out-of-date right now..hopefully can be better like my sis..Perez Hilton~!!! :p

I love my blog and my life...sometimes what we want isn't what we get. In life, we're struggling to get better n better thing..and most of the time, disappointment always come first. Tapi bila diingat, “Just when you think it can't get any worse, it can. And just when you think it can't get any better, it can.” (movie At First Sight)...memang betul pun, banyak hikmah yg datang dalam 2011 ni...supposed to be I can smile n thankful on it, but my brain says... "I don't want this, I want that... actually... I need that!!". Oh Tuhan...biadapnya hambamu ini..x reti bersyukur langsung..*sigh*. 

“Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.” 

― Dr. Seuss

Hopefully, this year I can do something amazing for my life because at this moment, I've no idea what to do at all!!!..just kepala otak nih pikir nak gi somewhere-only-we-know je...hoh0~!! Anyway, for my dear friends, highlights sepanjang bulan nih nak fokus story-mory kat sephora okies! akan ada banyak entry yg akan di taip ala ala konsep citer 'pretty little liars' (mcm pernah tengok...padahal tajuk cambest jer..! hoh0~!). FYI, I love my job! nak keja sampai mati kalau boleh...huhu... even I patut quit after 2 months I worked in there.."nape nak quit awal sangat??". Alaa uols..atas sebab2 tertentu..(hai sayang!!! #tetibe). Apa pun, banyak yg I belajar kat sephora...such a wonderful experience...:) n the best part is, drama everywhere n everyday!! Ada je hot story from first day I joined sephora until now....wah-la-wei!! Sometimes, I trying to avoid but I can't resist...hehe~ just like Virginia Woolf said, “You cannot find peace by avoiding life.”

Apa jua yg berlaku, I lebih prefer untuk bercerita yg sweet2 sajer sebab yg buruk patut di simpan sahaja dan dijadikan bahan ketawa untuk suatu hari nanti bersama2 teman seperjuangan...gittew! Tapi yg tahu tentang citer citer yg bakal di blog-kan nih, jgn panggil I positive sangat..bukan niat I menidakkan apa yg berlaku, tapi tidak jugak mengiyakan segala-galanya...(coz I byk extended version dlm kepala otak I you know!! ewah!).. sebab I sayang all my friends dari masuk training kat Menara Keh Seng sampai terbukaknya dua cawangan sephora ittew...saya sayang kamu semua!! (dan saya sayang awak jugak Cintaku!! #eh).. Kita taknak gaduh2...time area manager kita yg 1st tu je I suka kita gaduh..eh! kesitu pulak..hahaha!! Harap for this year, everything will be excellent and meletup!! I wanna see everybody can be  success as one team!! woot woot!! <== ampoi ampoi!! positif-nyer....huhu.. ~.~" 

So kepada kawan-kawanku, I bukan angel..n at the same time, jauh skali nak memburukkan personal orang dlm blog nih..kalau terasa...cepat2 beritahu I okies!! tak nak la sentap sentap nih. I pun buat silap, tapi kalau korang mengenali diri I sedalam-dalamnya, takpun secara am-nya (BM sangat..).. I just wanna have fun at the work and make it friends and laugh n laugh everyday, coz I've already got own problems on my shoulder....yelah, mulut I kadang2 (ke selalunya...hee) agak biadap sikit, so tak rasa diri ni baik or positif sangat... Tapi kalau dah takleh terima cara I yg feeling jap baik jap notty nih, jadi, I bukan la kawan yg sesuai untuk you berkawan macam kata-kata Marilyn Monroe, “I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.” 

Again, positive or negative? optimistic or pessimistic? 
~I'm assertive..:) 

p/s: I Love You. :)