FEBoulus~

Nusa Dua, Bali

25/02 - ini first post aku for this month..*menangis*. Actually from 1st Feb lagi really wanted to write something but the laziness plus excitement with my vacation that time makes me keep delay n delay my new post. Dah puas holiday..penat menjadi jadi..delay lagi.... Pastu bila dah ready nak menaip, twitter mengganggu pulekss..sampai mengantuk bertwitter..gi tido..delay lagiiiiiii... Itu x masuk penat jaga budak, pastu kaki ni nak merayap kuar, makan pulak cam beruang kutub, asik sibuk baca novel, buat itu ini n segala bentuk halangan lah yg membuat blog ni tidak aktif.. senang kata delay sajorrkkk! penat kita melayan perangai diri sendiri yg x bermotivasi nih...haihh~

Kuta, Bali

Anyway, this month I assume my happy-new-year month seem January I doing nothing..makan tido sajorkk. So, it brings me back my strength-ness to pursue my life to achieve what I want all this time. N Alhamdulillah, apa yg di plan kebanyakkannya menjadi..macam gi Bali hari tu - my friggin awesome day!..n dapat career baru - tapi ni belum start lagi..huhu.. Ni just sebahagian dari hidup I untuk bulan nih. Nak explain satu2, feeling diary la pulakk..mampoo orang nak baca kisah hidup kau sajorkk?! feelinggg**... Apa pun, it ain't easy for me to rid off what happen in my life before this..n it won't, still stayed because I love the bittersweet moment in my life - that made me as a person for today. Full of courageousness. Thank you LOVE.:)

Monkey Temple, lupa-lak-kat-ner

Seem I will stuck with my new strenuous career (hopefully NOT!), I don't think for next month I can update my blog as usual..but we'll just see first okies! mana la tahu, tetiba bersemangat nak update pasal keja lak.. (haiyoo..perlukah?) I rasa tak perlu kot sebab rasa mcm choi nak update benda2 camtu..tengok la post pasal keja kat sephora tu..sedeyh!! kalau aku update keja aku nih, cam marabahaya lak rasanya..hahaha!! n I was thinking is it necessary to close this blog forever? hmmm just sayin'...y'know what, just let the time passing by - that time I'll decide which good for me. Masa sekarang sangat laju bergerak, aku terasa sangat..kadang2 rasa nak berdoa tolong perlahankan sikit masa ni, cam takut sia~! I tak nak jadi tua dalam waktu yg singkat, masa membunuhku!! I'm not sayin I wanna enjoy my life but it would be nice to say I just wanna appreciate my life every single second I breathe.. 

Kalau sape2 ada baca novel THE CHOICE by Nicholas Sparks, mungkin akan faham maksud I. Novel tu bila aku baca, it was fun for the beginning n wrenching your heart for the last part -  and I love the ending though..menangis bagai nak rak, macam ada dalam story tu lak. But it's true! jalan asas cerita tu lebih kurang sama dgn apa yg aku hadapi sekarang ni. Sebab tu hari ni, terasa motivated nak taip post baru..hohohO!! Bukan apa, kita sebagai manusia ada banyak pilihan dalam hidup, nak pilih itu ini n cuba tentukan hidup sendiri. Tapi kadang2 kita tak mampu nak buat pilihan bila takdir lebih menguasai pilihan kita sendiri. That time, you seem the hope is lost, no choice for you. Hanya yg kita boleh buat, hanya berdoa dan menaruh harapan yg tinggi agar pilihan yg kita buat takkan silap walaupun nampak kabur. But STILL, kita tak boleh duduk dan tunggu pilihan yg kabur tu sampai 'merosakkan' kehidupan yg akan datang. Unless we die..it easy right? that is inevitable. Selagi kita bernafas, maka, cara yg terbaik ialah dengan memulakan satu perkara yg baru dan pada masa yg sama 'pilihan yg kabur' tu kita kekalkan, tak salah berharapkan? Itu yg novel tu ajar kat aku..wah!! katanya..hehe.. Aku takkan berhenti berharap untuk sesuatu yg kabur dan pada masa yg sama cuba melakukan perkara yg baru untuk 'hidupkan-kekaburan' itu...(tetiba touching lak!! *amik tisu jap*).

So, moral of the story adik adik.... appreciate your LIFE with pray and love. n don't eat too much!! #eh. Be grateful..our life is not easy n it won't but we can take our step & path and make it as wonderful as we want to be...love your life!! woot woot~!! (cakap macam pandai - walaupun~~)

p/s: psst psst cikecik muahhh tsskkk ahhh! :)